It
was when Jeremy entered the university prefect board, he stumbled upon her
first. Gloomy, he might be at the beginning, but pausing little in the middle
of works and keeping quite most of his time became habituated to him lately.
His friends became aware of what he is up to but helpless to comprehend who the
lover of his heart is. Soon his lecturers became unexpectedly disturbed by this
cooperative leading iconic figure of the class being so estranged unknowingly
like being washed, stranded to a whole new land.
His
friends, being polite and respectful to him reluctant to ask for the matter,
finally approached him strategically and found out what exactly had happened to
him after being promised several times not to talk anyone what he spoke to
except him. However, keeping it secret for long time won’t ever help him in
anyway whatsoever. If anything, then it would only be hurting him if he sees
his shell of oil being snatched by crow. His friends, as a means to help him,
begged him to go forward asking her directly or indirectly. After couple of
weeks’ work, he finally accepts their idea hesitantly. Lo and Behold, she soon
became Jeremy’s lover.
Jeremy
was an outstandingly disciplined respectful student in his higher studies and
in elementary school. He is the youngest of the three, born to quite a rich
family. He has been awarded several times, the best student of the year in his
previous schoolings. Naturally this made him shy to lead a life of a modern carefree
teenager.
The
lady Jeremy was after, had a bad behavior of walking hand in hand and visiting
cafeterias often with her boyfriend, which is dreadfully difficult to shoulder
for Jeremy with his benevolent diffident behavior. He advised her and respect
her telling how much she means to him. His pure love never had touched with any
filthy behavior though she wanted it. His meeting with her involved his two
friends or either one of them and within the span of once in a month time. The
rest lies on ink decorated in the form of poetry or words from the deepest of
his heart on to thin sheets of papers. But he always was beholden to his two
good friends and dreams to see a day of getting married to his lover.
Days
passed by, unknowing to him, she secretly had started an affair with a college
mate of her exact type. Achieving her didn’t help Jeremy doing any better in
academic performance. Day after day, his results became low, his involvement
and empathy on studies diminishes. To his amazement, one day she got busted to
him with her new lover hand in hand in a deluxe restaurant both sitting very
close to each other. He was stunned by what was displayed in front of his eyes,
started to loose strength of his legs and leaned to his friend adjacent. The
rest is unspeakable.
At
least with all his strength, to make sure she is his or otherwise, he asked her
to meet him in the College student room where they always meet. She came. But
talked very rudely and never even dare to respond to him. She compared him with
her new lover and addressed him so badly. True though in her words, at least
this time alone, her new lover is better in academic, gut in things that she
desires, and handsome in her perspective. He begged her to stay with him but
she didn’t care and left him. She would strangle him to death if she could. She
wanted to take revenge from him for wasting her days refraining from exhibiting
her true behavior. As a last word, he said: Jonathan! You are going to regret
this one day. Sure she will mourn one day.
Jeremy
also is a chronic brain patient since childhood. But soon after the day he
broke up with her, he started lamenting all day and every day, eventually
bringing his daily routine to its knees. He started skipping loads of classes
and his sickness increases on a daily basis. Finally, he was hospitalized.
Doctor’s advice was to move abroad for an immediate brain surgery. The family
hastily did it in Singapore. After his surgery he returned to home and he
himself got a consistent visit to a counsellor.
Anew,
started his days studying what he lost. He only had a semester and a little
more to complete his three-year course.
He himself holds the 9th position in the list of the
country’s best students in pre university course. However, his now - rival,
holds 5th position in the same list. He toiled over nights and days,
amidst of rejected, depressed, thrown away feeling. And what he finally
harvested is the best anyone can embellish. Even then, every flipping day he
stops at the end of the session staring at her going away hand in hand with her
new lover out of the college premises. A day never goes by without seeing her.
He always wanted her back.
University
studies is over. Graduation is done. Finally, the much awaited day appeared.
The congregation of awarding. He was pronounced not less than four times for
prizes that totally separated him from others. “The best student of the year”,
“The best all-rounder”, and of course “the most disciplined student”. He took
his awards and walked in front of her at least four times that day displaying
her if she is deaf, or letting her hear if she is blind, the reasons she
rejected him. She was sitting in the audience, may be feeling guilty, but
clapping in disgust or even may be in anger or in sorrow.
He
moved to London University for his doctorate soon after. Nonetheless, his work
never stopped. Every day he walked on the road in front of her house staring at
for any chances of seeing her. His friends, begged him in tears to give up and
find a better looking a good girl which they offered they could find it for him
if it costs them a life. But he rejected. Love is surely this blind.
Nevertheless, her lost is her lost forever. She is so stubborn to get back to
him. She finally got married to someone. The love of her heart, according to
her words back then, has gone with someone else and she has been stranded
several times from several people of her sort and taste. But everyone has gone
and finally stuck up with her, previously didn’t know, husband.
Jeremy
stopped calling her, begging her since she became some body’s partner. But he
couldn’t help in loving her. His family, aware of what was going on, somehow
forced him to get married. He finally married. His wife is a kind,
understanding, educated, responsible and beautiful. But he never leaned on her
side. After his studies, Dr.Jeremy started his job as a Minister and started
his service for the government. His desperate behavior finally separated his
wife from him. He was forced to divorce her if he fails to pay her, her right.
Life
had gone to a total mess. He thinks on losing his good wife, his being
inconsiderate to her, and the fruitless love he yearns.
On
the dusk of a day, in the middle of August, he collapsed unconscious on the
doorstep of his house. He was immediately admitted to the hospital. And with
all the agonies he forbore, the intolerability he shouldered on his back……………
doctor pronounced him dead roughly at 2000 hrs.
After
the demise of this Romeo, his so – called lover, cried, at least for the first
time and out went the words that she should have spoken long before: “I surely am
a jerk. If only I knew how to value his unconditional love. As he said back
then, I surely regret for my grievous mistakes.”
